On a mission to live

Roller coaster. Right? I’ve said it countless times before. This disease, the treatment, the side effucks (hi insomnia), the waiting…on markers, on a cure, on death…it’s a rollercoaster unlike no other. And right now I’m heading up, knowing at some point I could be on my way down. But right now for me, I’m enjoying…

Measuring Cancer

“The truth about life and lie about life is not measured by others but by your intuition, which never lies.“ Santosh Kalwar In today’s world one can’t walk down the street without encountering someone who is battling cancer, won the war on cancer or lost a loved one to cancer. It’s everywhere. In a sense…

I can wait

It’s been a hot minute since I have written. No reason why just didn’t have any words to share and wanted to live in the moments of life for a bit. Quick update..markers continue to drop. Waiting for the latest from yesterday‘s visit. The meds seem to be keeping me stable. White count is highest…

The sword

I want to runaway. Not because I don’t love you. Because I do. More than life I don’t want you to see me fall apart. To watch the pieces you once admired disappear. Like sand. Dust to dust. To watch the wrinkles of smiles turn to scars of pain. To watch your smiles turn to…